so, i thought that i wouldn’t write again until i get to say that the website is up, but i thought i’d at least let you know that i haven’t thrown in the towel and moved back up to the mountains to snowboard my life away.
i’m going into my web developers/designers on friday to train how to work the backside of the site. apparently, it will be completed by then. and that makes me happy, however, i’m not holding my breath, because i know that there will be a list of things that need to be corrected and changed that we’ll create while i’m there.
so here’s what i’ve been doing with my time.
1. feeling weird/guilty for not working 14 hour days the last few weeks. what is it about being your own boss that makes you feel uncomfortable for not busting your ass non-stop? it’s like because i have no boss that i work for and i have no office i report to, i feel like i’m supposed to be working non-stop, all day. i think it has to do with being at home too. there’s definitely that stigma that people that work from home don’t really work. i could easily be researching the latest online marketing ideas and SEO buzz, but really? after a while, staring at the computer actually aggravates me. and i think there is a point where you have to go, i’ll be okay not knowing everything in the universe concerning page rank and online marketing when we launch. i’ve actually felt much better once i acknowledged that fact to myself. do i know everything there is to know about this subject? no. is there more i can learn on this that would probably help me? of course. am i going to fill up five hours a day doing this just so i can say i was working when everyone else was? hell to the no. BORING. and not good for my attitude or mindset, i’ve learned.
2. exercising outside. yes, it is still in the low to mid 90’s here (mother nature, you bitch) and yes, that is about 15 degrees warmer than it’s supposed to be here this time of year. and yes, i feel like we’re getting gypped on the already small number of cool weather days we have here. and yes, i’m slightly upset about it. HOWEVER, it is cool enough for me to exercise outside, in the sun, and that has been boosting my morale. even though i’ve got a hat on and layer upon layer of sunblock covering my arms, neck, ears, and face, the sun feels good, good, good. see, i don’t go outside from about mid-may to mid-october because it’s 147 degrees outside and dips down to a cool 98 degrees at night. it’s pretty much like a reverse winter. so, it’s great to know that i can now take an hour or two and go hike one of the mountains in town (very bizarre, by the way) or go walk around the lake (another weird wonder:man-made lake that is 10ft at it’s deepest), or grab the dog and go for a run. just being able to break up my day and go outside for a bit is so much nicer than going to the gym. again. and again. by august, i can’t stand the inside of that place so only going there 2-3 times a week instead of 4-5 is a nice deal.
3. thinking about the type of manager i want to be. the point of starting this company is so it will grow and grow and grow in a successful way. just growing is not a good goal. i’ve worked for companies that grew extremely fast and they were the worst places to work. i’ve been at two different companies where this occurred and both times, two things happened: they became top-heavy, and everyone else did not reap any of the benefits. i know it’s necessary to promote some people so you can delegate and have some help so you don’t make every decision your self and get spread way too thin. but 1)why in the hell would you promote the majority of the people, especially if it’s a slightly smaller company (out of 45 employees, i had four bosses. who did not all think alike. stupid)? and if it’s a larger company, like almost 200 employees, and you promote people to create an entire executive team, why in the hell is one person (the CEO) still involved in EVERY SINGLE DETAIL AND DECISION involving the company? this happened at the first place i worked and things moved at a snail’s pace and ridiculous decisions were made. total dictatorship. again, stupid. i have learned a lot of how not to run a company from these two past experiences and i think that is almost more valuable than having worked at a place that was warm and fuzzy. i know first-hand how badly it sucks when leadership is lame and growth is not thought out or planned at all. i want to work with the people that work at durtbagz. i also want them to really like being there and like what we’re all about. so i’ve been putting in a lot of thought as to how that will work. yes, i know i’m a one person company right now. but, i’ll need someone to schedule my vacations on our private jet, someone else to get our parties catered, and someone else to schedule our weekly company massages. dude.
4. time management. i don’t know about you, but i suck when things are slow. both in my personal life and my professional life. it’s exactly like when i used to wait tables: when i had six tables and there was a two-hour wait, i was on, on, on. rarely did i forget anything or get an order wrong. and if i did, i was usually forgotten because i’d become pals with my tables. and they had beer. when it was slow, i forgot stuff left and right. i was the worst server ever. that is exactly how i am, in general when i have too much time on my hands. i like having a schedule, not necessarily the same one everyday, but i like knowing i have some sort of a plan for my day when i wake up. and lately, that has been really difficult to achieve. since i’m not online yet, i’m covering my bases for when i launch. press release written? check. video edited and ready to post? check. spreadsheet of contacts at different colleges across the country? check. practicing quickbooks so i get my money when we are up and running? check. reading up on blogs and SEO? check. voice-mail for the 800# recorded? check. see what i mean? it’s really hard to prepare for the unknown, i’ve found out. i try and think of different scenarios that could come up once we’re online and then figure out how i’d handle them. or think of unique ways to market durtbagz and then look at ways of executing those ideas and try and plan for when they might fit in the big picture. i don’t wake up and have a routine because some days i have 7 hours of work and some days i have two hours. and some days, i take a step back and don’t work at all. but it’s weird. the to-do’s i have on my calendar, i could probably accomplish in about 2.5 days if i worked 8-10 hours a day. but i spread it out, so i have a little schedule each day. and it has not made me the most productive person ever. i need to re-record the voice-mail for the 800# because i have a new phone and i come in clearer with it. i’ve had this on my things to do for five weeks. and i still haven’t done it. because i don’t have a deadline for it. the fact that i don’t have a day set that we’re pulling the trigger makes me lazy on the admin items that need to be done before we do. i also think i spread out the random stuff i have to do until that day because of the guilt thing. the husband goes to work everyday from 8:30a to 5:30p, five days a week and brings home a paycheck. i really don’t like telling him i spent half of the day walking around some new shops (not spending money, but not working, either) while he was working. even though, i was working ridiculous hours for months prior to this and will be again hopefully very soon (who’s idea was it to launch during christmas shopping season?!?). i actually played golf yesterday and didn’t work at all. i felt pretty bad last night when he got home, even though he did/does nothing to make me feel guilty, i still do. but i don’t have a full day of work today either. in fact, i’m going to go hike after i post this. and then come back and do a few things before i play tennis at five. see what i mean? i like working a full day and i like being busy at work. you can only prepare for something so much before you have to dive in and actually do it. and unfortunately, i have no control, at this point, over when this diving will happen. and it’s wreaking havoc with my schedule and productivity.
that’s it. i’ll be posting some new photos of the new bags and the durtbagz video will be up on youtube as soon as we launch. not bad for our first one.